“I’d rather watch you kiss other mouths forever than risk the chance of losing you for good.”
This is the code that thirty-six-year-old punk rock guitarist Samuel James Johnson lives by. It keeps him safe inside the closet, hidden from fans, from the world, from Adam Kieran Lee, his lifelong best friend, and the man he’s silently been in love with since he was seventeen.
Unfortunately, though Sam’s caution and closed lips protect him from being known, it can’t stop the perpetual wounds that Adam, who’s by all appearances straight, accidentally carves into his heart when he shamelessly womanizes on tour.
Though the two of them have considered themselves close nearly all their lives, a distance has settled between them. While Sam is distracted living a double life and crafting songs with his secret boyfriend, Oliver, Adam is intensely jealous, convinced he’s being replaced as Sam’s best friend.
With random women in Adam’s arms, and a boyfriend wanting more from Sam than he can give, tensions eventually come to a head, forcing them to face the things they’re terrified to reveal, risking the very loss that Sam has so carefully worked to avoid.
The Things We Couldn’t Say is a high angst, slow burn MM romance about friendship, secret longing, bisexual awakening, and the courage it takes to love yourself and be honest.
What if losing my father means losing my husband, the love of my life, my childhood best friend, too?
This is a question Adam can’t stop asking as he spirals headfirst into addiction, all alone.
Three years married, Adam and Sam have lived a quiet and somewhat isolated life on the California coast, especially since Adam’s father died. Sam knows that he’s depressed, but it’s the regular, mysterious disappearances that concern him most.
Ever avoidant, Sam is more than happy to bury his head in the sand and ride the situation out. Perhaps that’s why it doesn’t feel quite so dangerous to accept an out-of-the-blue invitation to spend Christmas in Idaho with his entire family, including his religious, homophobic father, who skipped his wedding and cut him off.
So, it’s without much hesitation that Adam and Sam decide to go, though they’re promptly reminded of the harsh reality when they’re stuck in a cabin that feels much too small, pressed beneath the weight of dysfunction masquerading as love.
Alongside his equally disdained sister, Tiffany, Sam tries his best to toe the line, remain calm, and ignore the obvious problems with his loved ones. Unfortunately, beneath the scrutiny and brazen intolerance, Adam’s mental health rapidly deteriorates, and his addiction takes control. When the true nature of his secretive behavior comes to light, it puts a marriage that means the world to both of them in peril, forcing them to choose between familial obligation and a passionate lifelong bond.
The Wayward Ones is an honest exploration of the raw realities of marital struggles, the difficulty of fractured family dynamics, and how to decide where reconciliation is or isn’t deserved.
I’m not okay. I’m not okay at all. I’m dark again. I’m exhausted. I feel hopeless. I’ve been painting the walls and sleeping on the kitchen floor.
One year after a falling out that cost him and his former bandmate, Mike Hoffmann, a shot at fame, Oliver Bernard is determined to make his ex see that he’s worth something more than a mere distraction from someone else.
Though their lives are miles apart, Oliver trapped in a maddeningly silent prison of loneliness and shame, Mike resolutely enduring a dead-end job, toxic marriage, and fervent sense of loyalty to his young daughters, the two of them have stuck together since the day they met. They know without question they’ve got each other’s backs when no one else does, which is why Oliver asks Mike to perform with him at Punk Rock Bowling: an opportunity that can put them back on the music map, help them get on their feet, and show the world that he’s a force to be reckoned with.
To Oliver, the performance is urgent and necessary, even when his bond with Mike quickly gets too deep and crosses boundaries that friendships shouldn’t. As a tender, safe intimacy steadily blossoms in their private world, Mike’s marriage swiftly disintegrates, and Oliver is quietly left hiding something dark and dangerous for the sake of appearing in control.
I Was Broken Before I Got Here is a tale of grace, redemption, love, self-worth, family, and finding meaning in the simpler things in life.
You used to be a good person…
Yeah, I guess I did.
It’s a thought that comes often after a day that begins like any other for Adam, his husband Sam, and their long-time, complicated friends, Oliver and Mike.
While Adam plants an ill-fated kiss on the back of Sam’s hand on their way to a record release party that is sure to be the peak of Mike’s career, a wrong-way drunk driver slams into their vehicle, leaving Oliver and Adam widowed, alive but forever haunted.
In the aftermath of their shared loss, Oliver and Adam fall apart in different ways. Adam very loudly, publicly slips into his old vices: casual encounters with too many strangers, alcohol, and drugs that land him in the tabloids and humiliate his only son. Oliver, on the other hand, struggles in isolated silence because Mike’s daughters never call, leaning on therapy that doesn’t work, taking walks that don’t help, and sleeping on the kitchen floor like he did when he was desperate and young.
One day, despite what feels like a lifetime of personal grudges and mutual disdain, Oliver gets curious about Adam’s wellbeing and decides to see how he is. Though they never did manage to genuinely get along, the contact ignites the start of a bender, setting them on a path of unchecked mutual self-destruction that quietly helps them drop their guard just enough to find each other in the unexpectedly tender, secluded spaces it creates.
Of course, they can only keep the world at bay for so long, and soon they’re left to face the repercussions of their messy actions: Adam confronted by a son who doesn’t recognize who he is anymore, and Oliver trying to reassure his stepdaughters, parents, and sister that he’s not just stuck in a low. With the photographs of their fallen husbands a constant reminder of how things used to be, Adam and Oliver fight with all they have to carve out a life worth living for themselves.
If You Left All the Pictures on the Wall is an intimate exploration of what it means to struggle through unthinkable loss, find second chances in unexpected places, and learn how to love with the entirety of a heart that once felt much too broken to do it again.
“Some things are worse than death.”
These are the words that continually haunt Ezra “Two Shots” Smith, a ruthless outlaw shaped by blood and hate beside the river.
Obsessed with revenge, Ezra is a man who takes from the powerful and answers only to himself. At least, that’s the way it is until a twist of fate lands him helpless in the dirt, staring at the faintly haloed shadow of Alexander “Good Times” Davis.
A member of The Resistance, Alex is everything Ezra isn’t: insightful, steady, patient, and discerning. He’s the kind of man who isn’t afraid of truth, enabling him to look past the hardened outlaw’s reputation and into the helpless boy the vicious cowboy used to be. Recognizing the pain beneath the facade, Alex refuses to let Ezra hide behind it.
But Ezra knows better than most how dangerous vulnerability can be. With enemies from his past closing in, he’s keenly aware that any sign of weakness could cost him everything.
With the powers that be threatening to bring him to his knees again, Ezra is forced to choose between the revenge that’s kept him alive and the life Alexander dares him to believe in.
Dangling High is a queer anti-western MM romance about the necessity of tenderness, the cost of violence, and what it means to be truly free.
Always the supportive, loyal, and, most importantly, invisible friend in the shadow of his bestie, Maverick, Nathan has spent most of his life putting his needs aside. Though he is privately grappling over how to both accept and publicly define himself as nonbinary and bisexual, Nathan finds himself inadvertently caught up in a mischievous, romantic plot to win Maverick’s heart on behalf of his rival (and toxic obsession), Jackson Mitchell.
At first, the arrangement is merely inconvenient, but as time wears on, what started as a helpful plot between friends becomes more complicated as Nathan and Jackson’s relationship deepens. In the midst of his personal turmoil, Nathan is drawn into an emotional triangle, caught between friendship, desire, and the terrifying realization that he might want bigger things than he’d ever imagined before.
The Times We Fell in Love is an emotionally charged, introspective romance about embracing your identity, complex love, and the unexpected paths we often walk toward happiness.